Spirit
Spirit, heart or soul, it doesn't matter what you call it. It is still the most beautiful and most important part of you, it's what makes you you and not the person next to you. Some things in life will try to crush our spirits and try to destroy us, and some things in life will make our spirits soar. We just need to trust that our lives are in our own hands, we all control our own fate, our own destiny. But we are always influenced by outside forces, whether its our parents, our friends or even our teachers. Like everything in life some influence is good, and some is bad, some choices are right and some are wrong. We can never always immediately tell the consequences of our actions until its too late. But we will always have the little voice in the back of our head telling us what's right and wrong. Maybe that's a part of our spirits too. But some things, like eating disorders, can sneak up on you, promising fake promises which can rule and deceive your mind and your body. I'm not that wise or experienced but if there is anything i've learnt in my short life its that's sometimes the decisions we make are influenced by things we don't understand. Even if it seems like it, we don't do anything without a reason. There are lots of different reasons for having an eating disorder, its not always about losing weight, anyone who's experienced it knows that, it's mostly to do with control. But what people don't understand is that we don't control our spirit, but we do own it,and the choices we make can damage our spirits, sometimes permanently. Which is a shame because we have so much potential to live happily and be free without being tied down to disease. Trust me, we can overcome this if we do what our spirits want and stop doing what this disease wants. One day we will look back at ourselves and hopefully be proud of what we accomplish. That's why having spirit is about, being able to be proud and truly happy about the choices we make.   Life is all about choice. But when you have an eating disorder it feels like your choice is gone, you gradually lose your control, and give in to this monster our experiences create. We can regain control of our lives, its hard, but trust me it is possible. I know it is. Even if you keep telling yourself you can't, you can't gain control, you can't gain weight, you can't stop eating, you can't start eating, you can't live anymore. We need to stop telling ourselves we can't. Because I know in my heart that we can,every single one of us. Even if our spirits are broken there are ways to fix them. We are all so amazing, even if we don't see it ourselves. So try not to think of your worth in terms of fat and skinny. Because you will completely destroy your spirit, and yourself. It is not worth that to be thin.
 "If you just be safe about the choices you make, you don't grow" -Heath Ledger
 Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. But today is a gift, that's why it's called the present.
 |  "Some people feel the rain. Others just get wet" -Bob Dylan
I just recently learned that when you take the time to love yourself, even if it takes months (took me 6 months), you will have a positive spirit in you. I live a more positive and child-like life and it's amazing to see how much I learn about myself with each day that I let myself enjoy life. Don't let this stupid disease take over your personality and spirit. Live like you did when you were 5 years old, it's the only way to be truly happy. - Jen <3
 
Don't compare yourself to others. Because i've had all kinds of people tell me they wish they could look like me or have my life. Who are they to assume i have a good life just because I was skinny. It scares me to think that people want to be like me. It really scares me. I feel like sometimes this whole experience has made me weaker, but I know that eating disorders are not a weakness, they are disease. Having a disease doesn't make you weak, but recovering does make you strong. It takes a strong person to defeat these demons, but you are a strong person, we all are. We all have days where we feel on top of the world, and days where we feel like dying, but whoever said life was perfect? Just to live at all is a great accomplishment. We don't look it, but we are truly the strongest, most amazing, beautiful people in the world. Want to know why? Because we've suffered. We're still suffering. Be it from anorexia, bullying, depression or any other hardship, we suffer every day. But anyone who's reading this and hasn't given up completely on life is amazingly strong. To keep trying to defeat this, even if we fail a few times is so much better than not trying at all. We just have to not give up and pick ourselves up when we fall, that's what having true spirit is. Having true spirit is to be able to admit your mistakes, and tell the world you believe you can do this and you are worth so much more than what you look like. Having true spirit is staying strong throughout the tough times. You can defeat any obstacle in your path if you can believe in yourself. Stay strong xx Take care of your body. It's the only place you have to live. ~Jim Rohn
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