"Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You better know that in the end
It’s better to say too much
Than never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open"

This section is from the song "Say" by John Mayer based on the movie "The Bucket List." I strongly suggest you guys either take time to listen to the song or watch the movie. The main idea of the movie and song is that you should live life as if it were your last days. Well, of course we always hear this same general idea (carpe diem/seize the day). However, we never take the time to think about what it really means to our own individual lives instead of the whole world. This one idea has almost freed me from the world of depression and mental distortion. I have not followed the idea of doing something every day that scares you or whatever else they may say. You see, in my mind this means to do whatever your hearts desires and not let the world change anything you have originally thought to do. It’s not about the world, it’s about YOU. Be selfish, however, don’t become arrogant. Make yourself your first priority and this will change your life for the better. I always thought as my dad being cruel and inconsiderate, but this past month I have finally understood what he has been trying to do. He said, “The world is full of mean people and I am trying to make you strong before the world tries to step all over you. Make yourself your first priority because if you don’t, you will fall into pieces when the world turns away from you and deceives you. Then make your family your second priority because they will always be there for you, no matter how nasty or stupid they may be. After that, make education your third priority because the more knowledge, the more you will learn how to enjoy life and become someone in life. But during this process, never forget to love yourself and take care of yourself.” My father was right and I was wrong; I took everything to the heart, but as a weak perfectionist, I saw it from a whole different view. Now I hope you take some of these ideas into heart and make yourself better. Reflect on this quote from the movie,“You know, the ancient Egyptians had a beautiful belief about death.  When their souls got to the entrance to heaven, the guards asked two questions.  Their answers determined whether they were able to enter or not.  ‘Have you found joy in your life?’  'Has your life brought joy to others?”